I know it's been forever. I've been really busy with school and everything, but I just want to sum up some stuff.
GOD IS GOOD. He has been doing so much in my life since I was on last! I'm about to upload at least twelve poems, all written in the last month. Since I stopped talking to a certain Marine. And it would be a pointless and pathetic lie to say it hasn't been hard, that even last night, if I hadn't been with some people I didn't know that well, I would have cried a little bit (originally it was regular total breakdowns).  He really is amazing. And if you could pray for him, that would be fantastic, cause all I ever want for him is for him to be close to God's own heart. I fully believe that this is God's method of testing him, as well as testing me.  Through His testing of me, I have learned the meaning of true faith, and I have been forced to find my completeness in Him, or to be empty (see poem "A Million Years, Alternate").  And He has made me complete in Him.  I learned to come before His throne, broken, pathetic, and plead- sometimes pushing back a scream, sometimes incapable of more than whimpering- His promises that He has made to me, to all of us.  And as He has said, He is faithful to keep them, and has. I am blessed.  I serve a marvelous awesome loving unspeakable God. One day I will have the words to praise Him properly, but today is not that day.
I could talk about that more, and if you want me to, contact me. But I'm gonna move on now.
I've met some awesome people. Some are just really fun, some are encouraging, some are just all-around fantastic. My teachers are all great, and since I'm at a Christian college, a few of them even choose to start off class every period with a devotional. My brother and his wife are seniors here and I get to see them all the time and hang out at their apartment and his wife is an awesome cook which makes my life that much better. There was a MASSIVE emotional upheaval since I began this post, and I broke. Something just snapped. But everywhere I went, people were trying to offer me encouragement, an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, wise words, kind words. God's been working yet more and I am convinced that He is nowhere near done. Which is good, cause even when the road seems impossible, He's always beside me, guiding me down it, holding my hand, like a father with his beloved child. God is good, you guys. I promise you that my God is good.